Life is wasted on...people

About The Author:
My name is Sara and I live on the East Coast, but I am known for being a night-owl. I have been journal roleplaying since 2006 and roleplaying in general since... god, 1997? Pretty much ever since I got hooked up to the Internet, I've been roleplaying. I will only do original character games. Generally, I do not look for ready-made romantic lines, because the fun is in naturally discovering the chemistry. However, I am always ready and looking for plot! ♥

I currently play these guys:

Heritage Lake;

Please comment/credit me if you take any. They're meant for RP purposes, of course!

( 99 Jack Huston )

oracso


Convenient. :D

Heritage Halloween Costumes
Bryan = Herman Munster
April = The Corpse Bride
Tonia = A tiger
Paxton = Seymour Krelborn (from The Little Shop of Horrors)
Ronnie = A robot
Maddie = Little Bo Peep
Fuchs = A "scary mime"*
Winnie = Zombie!Dentist


I'm even enthusiastic about Halloween for my characters! :D








*All mimes are kind of scary

But fuckin' with the G word is just not on!





Lately, I feel like the only enthusiastic person.

In the WORLD.


:/

I've had this journal for a really long time. It's kind of fun to go back and see the idiocy of little me*, first getting really into roleplaying. Obsessing over PBs. Posting inane entries.

I think I've changed. And it's kind of embarrassing, to see the way I used to be. I feel like I'm far less sensitive and obsessive about things, now. Finally. Only took me four years. I do think being a responsible moderator has helped, as well as having complex, adult characters. I really needed to get away from fairy tale games. Don't get me wrong, I liked them. They were silly fun. But it's a different kind of satisfaction. Having characters that are 100% mine, with no basis in someone else's story feels really great.

This is a kind of random post. But I just realized how much I've changed. I feel more tolerable now.

I think it kind of** coincides with myself changing in general. My interests have expanded and matured, too. I still like the same things, but I don't limit myself to one thing at a time. Does that make sense? My journal kind of had FOTC all over it. And now... I'd never do that. Sure, right now, it's Greenberg, but it fits. I'm slightly Greenbergian.

I need to stop thinking that RP people who had problems with me in 2008 still dislike me. They probably don't even remember me. And, looking back, I can see now that they were justified in their feelings, too. It hurt, but it wasn't coming out of nowhere. I wasn't faultless.

I think I'll change my mood theme now.











* I say "little", but I think I was 20 at the youngest. I exaggerate.

** Fuck. I didn't mean to use one phrase so much. I KIND OF need better variety.

My RP characters have far more interesting, happy lives than I have right now.

Granted, RP is supposed to be overdramatic, heightened life. But I'm still jealous of them. *sigh*

A smile, a glance, a moment
a minute minute in which nothing
and everything had changed

We don't need a holiday or cards
or candy to celebrate that moment
but I will take any opportunity to celebrate you

I put entirely too much thought into my characters' names. I am going to be playing my Dalton LaRue character and I was trying to remember why I'd given him that last name. In Open Books, he was Gaston.

Gaston LeRoux wrote The Phantom of the Opera.

Charlie Donovan - named for Donovan Leitch.
Tonia Renner - named for my cousin, and "Renner" means "runner", which is something she does.
Paxton Fine - Paxton is a name from one of my old novels and it means "From the peaceful town".


I am a dork.

This year, two of my characters have kind of inspired the two main characters in my new NaNoWriMo story. I say "kind of" because a lot is different about them in the story in my head, but it's still pretty cool to be able to build upon concepts and explore them in a full-on story. :) I've been looking forward to this year's WriMo since last year's ended, pretty much. Mainly cos halfway through writing last year's, I got the idea for this year's. And it was TORTURE! But luckily, the ideas have stayed in my brain and had plenty of time to develop into something pretty awesome. This year might end up being my NaNoWriMo to end all NaNoWriMos though, because of it.

tl;dr I'm a nerd!

I cannot get enough of Link Neal. ♥

Currently, I play him in the_lodge as Paxton Fine and I am in LOVE with that character. He's multi-faceted. I is proud. He's sort of a mixture of several past characters and ideas. His personality can't be described in one word.

And now I'm planning to play him as Moses in existenceco... because imagining a frazzled Link leading people to Israel is funny to me. "This way, yo!"

Pointless entry is pointless. But I have excitement about the things looming in the future of RPland.

I'm pimping this game because I ♥ it!





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I'm in love with his PB! The character just sort of flowed through my brain. I couldn't deny it life!

pfine


His PB:



[The second guy you see, aka Link.]

♥__♥

Is he not my type?! He's my EXACT type.

My PBs are always on the biased side, except for perhaps two with which I do not have much familiarity. But. Shh.

Funny how my last entry is me boasting about not succumbing to shiny PBs. I need to stop committing these things to writing - it only ever ends in me changing my mind.

#1 - I am resurrecting April Horowitz as ahorowitz in Heritage Lake! I missed playing her. Especially cos I need a strong girl in HL. I feel like Ainsley was cute, but I could never actually get plot from her. She was like a weak premise, of sorts. But April is awesome! And grumpy! Grumpy is a challenge for me, which is probably why I've been thinking of bringing her back. So far, Bryan has been doing well and he's my grumpy guy. :] I want to be known for playing multiple types. All of my characters can't be constant sources of niceness, dammit!

#2 - Speaking of niceness, I just filled out the app for hstclaire. She will be nice. And Quirky McQuirkington.

So that's 2:1 as far as moody:cheerful characters in a comm. Go me!

The majority of my OB characters are nice. Except for Dalton, Lars and sometimes Gabby.

CAN I HELP BEING A NICE PERSON AND THEREFORE A NICE CHARACTER PLAYER??!!
Shh. I know I could. I don't really want to.


That being said, hstclaire comes with a wealth of storyline options.
+ an older brother (I'm dying for someone to play him as an Anthony Rapp face. DY.ING.)
+ parents (cos older characters/PBs need to be played more often)
+ ex-boyfriend (could already be in HL or could be created)

April, on the other hand, just has the basic list: friends, enemies, people she seriously wants to kill, etc. :]

I've gotten so good at resisting shiny PBs. In the past week, at least five have caught my eye, but I've shot them down because I don't need any more characters. XD Especially ones that are created solely so I can play a certain PB.

Dude. I previously requested that someone portray Luke Wilson as an Aldrige brother in Open Books, with a time-related ability.

Then today, I requested someone play the Tin Man as a potential love interest for my new Eponine character.

The Tin Man gets a heart-shaped clock. Clock. Time. AHHHH!

I didn't even think of that.

10 points for my brain but then -5 points for being slow.

I hate that I always end up envisioning my characters with boyfriends/girlfriends and it only ever happens for them about 1/2 the time. I need to start imagining more realistic things, like friends. Because otherwise I set myself up for frustration.

I can only enable people to create significant others so many times before they want to kill me. XD

Okay, so I'm going on RP hiatus about one week and one day from now [Wednesday, March 17, to be precise]... I've never really done it before. Especially not for three weeks. But it needs to be done cos I am gonna try to do what Jon would do and enjoy it completely, and that means sitting outside, playing with my cousin, playing ukulele, having drinks and not sitting in front of my laptop all day.

I will be tweeting, so you'll [if you follow me] know how I'm doing, and I'll also be filming vlogs still [though not long ones; editing takes too long]. So I won't really be gone. Just... well, when compared with how I usually am, it might take some getting used to. :\ Sorry.

But, all that being said, I need to think what my characters will be doing. Any of your input would greatly help and be appreciated! So far, I'm thinkin' this:

Harrison might be on a mini tour of New England with Caloo Calay?
Tonia will be job hunting and possibly getting in gear to assist Gus with his father?
Dalton will be back to work cos the honeymoon has ended! [I should make an entry...]
Lucky will... I have no idea. XD Having fun, being a shop manager.
Ernie will be busy with the Spring Break Vegas crowd, doing magic. And still cooking with Mal every week.
Lars will be her typical grumpy, avoidant self.
Grant will be his busy doctor self and will be spending time with Anna and Ryder?
Jon will be taking a mini sabbatical from work and spending three weeks locked in his condo, writing his latest novel - a fiction one! Le gasp!
Gabby will just be chillin' and doing her usual, working and alternating taking care of Ma Levine. Maybe treating Rob to a home-cooked meal or three. :)

That's what I've thought up, just now. Cos I can't go on hiatus and leave my kids just hanging.

I've committed to dropping down to NINE characters. My nine most active {including the one newbie I'll hopefully be getting tomorrow}! And nine is my favorite number, so. XD

HARRISON TWEED
TONIA RENNER
DALTON LARUE
LUCKY KEATS
ERNIE HACKL
LARS LAWRENCE
GRANT MCKINLEY
JON ALDRIGE
GABBY LEVINE


I feel all sparkly, actually doing that!